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ahhh. cant seem to sleep. its already 2.30am. -_-

seems like everyone around me are pretty heavy on self-actualisation recently. i like it, really. but too much of it can be really tiring.

you have a whole life stretched out in front of you to self-actualise, to make mistakes and learn from them, to find out the principles of life, to find out what makes everyone tick; a whole life to discover about life, and being human.

why rush? :)
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i just realised something! 12 sept is the release of examination results. and i'll be all the way in bloody BATAM then. generation Y camp! 0_0

but on a happier note, i'm in the same group as lishi and clinton. =D =D =D

yesterday, work was horrible. i am never going to work 2 days consecutively. my feet is still sore right now. i was perfectly energetic and fresh after ending work 12 hours later even though i slept only 1 hour... in fact i could go on for another 6-8 hours more lor. BUT. my feet. oh my fish. my poooor feet. they were in agony in those damn heels!

GRRR. and jovan didnt let allow us off after 8 hours. we had to do 12 hours.

i nearly broke down and cried the 4-5 hours i spent standing at the lift landing, doing nothing but greet guests and press buttons. OH MY FISH lah! for nearly 5 hours, it was just me, the pain, and 6 lifts.

the pain was... excruciating. the whole time i kept telling myself, '"okay. okay. deeep breath. think zen. ZEN. think peace. lush green fields, comfortable soft soil. blue sky. cooling breeze. come on vivian! you can do it! DETACH! detach yourself from the pain!"

and then the lift goes dingding! and i have to change my facial expression from grimace to happy, and get ready to greet.

i think i'll never be a good loyal soldier. if the enemies make me go through that excruciating pain, i'll immediately speak.

oh HOH. make the men wear heels and stand on one single spot for 12 hours. lets see if they'll last!

prasad was imploring me to go back to work today as well. understaffed. and i just told him, "let me wear flat shoes, then i'll work." >.<

the maddening thing is, i wasnt even tired! i can work for 2 days without sleeping, and i've got no problem with that at all. its just those damn heels that are killing my feet. half the time my brain is fighting the pain. first my toes hurt... then it spreads to the soles. then to my calves. then slowly to my thighs. its like a deadly disease!

there must be some way around this. its ridiculous. all of the girls can work twice as efficiently and last twice as long if they put us in flat shoes. i thought through a lot of possible solutions during that 5 hours i was attending to the lifts. from eating painkillers to flat shoes that have illusioned heels. all of which, of course, dont exist.

HAHAHAH. okay i should stop complaining lah. anyway, the job itself is really good. i learnt a lot about service. serving, clearing, wine, table settings, about different beverages, yada yada blah blah blah.

learning about the wine was really interesting. how to hold it. how to pour it. how to ask. how to keep. and the best thing is, we get to practice doing the real thing during the dinner. i mean, how many people are going to let you practice pouring precious wine? you cant depend on imagination and just theory knowledge, you have to use real wine to practice to get the exact feeling.

and especially champagne. that horrible bubbly wine. horribly difficult to pour. have to tilt and do it veeeeeeerrryyyyy slowly. faster by a bit, and it will bubble over the top. so. who on earth is willing to let you practice pouring with the real, expensive champagne for free huh? maybe for wine can use imitation, like just put water in the wine bottle and practice pouring, cuz they are almost of the same texture. but no other beverage has the same texture as champagne.

oh ho ho ho. so it really is a goood learning experience. =D

minjun called me this morning 5 times, before i finally picked up her call and grunted a sleepy "what you want...". HAHA! -_-

so. we went back to swiss! a lot of us, actually. 4e5-ians. i'm surprised at the number of our guys who went back! but then again, actually every teachers day the guys make the effort to go down. on the other hand, this year for the girls, only me minjun and xiuxuan went. HAH! chatted with mr lim a lot. then a bit with mr ngoh.

we took a picture altogether in front of the school hall. because mr lim says the next time he sees the guys, they'll probably be in NS already. so he wants to spot the differences. LOL. so next year during teachers day, we will go back to the same spot, sit at the same position and take a picture together again. =)

went for lunch together at pastamania after that. then i went to ka jiao senglien and shaheila at jurong east library. LIEN, you dont have to act proper in front of me la please. HAHAHA. -_-

then. had dinner at causeway point with ahneh and wanting. =) its terribly comfortable to be with old friends. too terribly comfortable. especially when i compare it with working... where there is stress, exhaustion, insecurity, unfamiliarity. at work, sometimes i feel like my nerves are stretched to breaking point. today when i met up with ahneh and wanting, i just sat back, kicked off my slippers and really relaxed.

and it felt so good. so comfortable. almost sinful. >.<

saw justina and her gang of PIGLETS at causeway. LOL. finally met qiaoer, whom justina says resembles me alot. haha! i can sense the same aura. =\

i want a 12 hour sleep. my dog refuses to let me. =(