i am VIVIAN.
i study in singapore polytechnic.
i like to
DOODLED at 11:52 PMthat wu zhong xian show on channel U every saturday night is sooooooo nice. FUNNY. couldnt concentrate on accounts while i sat beside the tv. whoooops.
i am seriously, freaking paranoid.
and i think i'm getting worse at this responsibility thing. i should just quit. its making me hate myself. -_- beating down my self esteem. go to hell lah!
being stuck, doing something, year after year; that oughta get me mad some day. it isnt surprising right? but in the end, its all the rest of the people who matter. their opinions count the most. isnt that ironic, considering how personal such a skill is? no one cares about that though. when people around you say, "you can do it, you're good at this", thats the final verdict. so shut up, and go to work.
life, life, life. *sigh*
i need to let go of worldly affairs, and quit driving for perfection. let mistakes happen. let people do the wrong things. let nature take its course. stop trying to correct things vivian! stop being initiative. lets wait and see how long the passive people can remain passive.
take the back seat; maybe the view might be better afterall.
someday, maybe i will become the first female president of singapore. hmmm. but maybe elycia will get there before me, since she's walking more towards that goal than i am. struggling over the idiotic kind of stress isnt exactly president material.
oh well. maybe i should drop my goals to becoming an anonymous, middle income, average joe's wife, bear him kids, stay at home and clean the house, lead the rest of my life as a housewife and then just die.
hah. how un-exciting.
global tourism on tuesday = memorising the entire world map again. DU DIAO.
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DOODLED at 11:52 PMthat wu zhong xian show on channel U every saturday night is sooooooo nice. FUNNY. couldnt concentrate on accounts while i sat beside the tv. whoooops.
i am seriously, freaking paranoid.
and i think i'm getting worse at this responsibility thing. i should just quit. its making me hate myself. -_- beating down my self esteem. go to hell lah!
being stuck, doing something, year after year; that oughta get me mad some day. it isnt surprising right? but in the end, its all the rest of the people who matter. their opinions count the most. isnt that ironic, considering how personal such a skill is? no one cares about that though. when people around you say, "you can do it, you're good at this", thats the final verdict. so shut up, and go to work.
life, life, life. *sigh*
i need to let go of worldly affairs, and quit driving for perfection. let mistakes happen. let people do the wrong things. let nature take its course. stop trying to correct things vivian! stop being initiative. lets wait and see how long the passive people can remain passive.
take the back seat; maybe the view might be better afterall.
someday, maybe i will become the first female president of singapore. hmmm. but maybe elycia will get there before me, since she's walking more towards that goal than i am. struggling over the idiotic kind of stress isnt exactly president material.
oh well. maybe i should drop my goals to becoming an anonymous, middle income, average joe's wife, bear him kids, stay at home and clean the house, lead the rest of my life as a housewife and then just die.
hah. how un-exciting.
global tourism on tuesday = memorising the entire world map again. DU DIAO.